frustrating

it is very frustrating to always feel like you are being told to do something instead of being asked to or even better being helped. i cannot do everything by myself, i need help. i wish he could see that. i want help and i want us to do this together but somehow it never works out. i am sure somehow i am not communicating how i feel and what i need but it is not easy to be vulnerable. it is not easy for me to ask for help. i feel sad, i just wanna be happy and enjoy this time.